Sleep

Goddamn falling asleep shouldn't be this difficult. Staying asleep shouldn't be this difficult. The mornings don't feel nice and refreshing, and the tiredness sets in way too early in the evenings. Melatonin helps a bit, but also makes me sweat through the night. The sweating wakes me up, and I switch on the AC for a while, and the chill wakes Aditi up. So both of us are groggy through the day. Me despite drinking three-four cups of strong black coffee. 

The right sleep temperature is so critical but so hard to achieve. The room's either too cold or too hot. And if I wake up in the middle of the night, I'm definitely going to get some bizarre work-related dream when (if) I fall asleep again. 

The mind's busy even when I'm trying to fall asleep. I can feel my thoughts racing in my mind. They're jumping frantically from one topic to another. Have I replied to this email... what am I going to say? Do I talk sense when I make pitches? Can we invent a whole new way to do pitches? Is invention real at all or just a makeover of old things tried and tested? 

Was talking to AP yesterday and telling him about a recent incident where I didn't tell someone something I wanted to. And AP went, “Arre you should have, yaar. Itna kaun sochta hai!”

Makes sense. इतना सच में कोई नही सोचता। सिर्फ़ हम सोचते हैं, और फिर पछताते हैं। 

किसी दिन पछतावे पर कुछ मज़ेदार लिखना है। जैसे राकेश ओमप्रकाश मेहरा जी ने अपने किताब में लिखी है। 

नींद पर भी। पछतावा और नींद। के पछतावे के कारण नींद नही आती या फिर नींद नही आने के कारण पछतावा होता है। पता नही भई। मुझे सोने दो। 

Yes. That's what it's going to be called.