All of the above

Anxious again. For like the fifth or seventh day in a row. Don't even know what is up anymore. Is it the work gap? Is it Covid? Is it the lack of a professional community? Is it the routine? 

Is it all of the above? 

There's a definite loss of hope. You know you hear of so many stories of life turning around. Of stuff starting to work out for people. Is it the consistent efforts? Is it actioning a brainwave? Is it reducing the fucks given? Is it connections? Is it dumb luck? 

Is it all of the above? 

Being stuck in a rut. Continually oscillating between overconfident and under. Overenthusiastic and under. Overprepared and under. Living in the extremes, being unable to hit a middle ground. No sense of constant, and yet an absurd mundanity to this existence. Is it privilege? Is it bad timing? Is it a serious talent deficit? Is it an innate inability to do things others can? 

Is it all of the above? 

The party

All around us were people looking around, trying to spot other people they thought recognised them, hoping someone would come up and start a conversation. 

And thus the entire evening, collectively, was spent in silent hope.

Two kinds of people (in the context of entertainment)

The kind that want to get better, and the kind that want to have fun. The former live in the future or past, the latter in the present. 

And largely there's way more people who live in the present than there's people who like to get better at shit. So, give ideas that seem fun. 

They're way easier to sell. 

Getting better while having fun is the easiest to sell. 

Living in the now - mindfulness. The future takes care of itself.

How do you reconcile living in the moment with having a heightened awareness about the future? 

Pitch fun ideas to brands. Educational and for the general betterment of people yes, but ideas that are largely really fun.