The feeling of haste and urgency is - in all probability - the universe testing you.
Testing to see how desperate you are for it.
Desperation is the great repeller of the universe.
Even in the Milky Way, at the spot of the dipole repeller lies a huge supervoid.
Which is the universe basically telling you nothing comes to those who are desperate for it.
I now have a 50-year plan, inspired by someone who is in great power today who - I think - when he was younger, has waited patiently to see the time he wished for.
And it has come true for him. Not that I agree fully with this man's principles and values.
But some things are best learnt from villains. Because heroes are too virtuous to always do the smart thing.
The plan is to wait. And wait. And wait. To react to nothing. To be shaken by nothing.
Which is going to take a lot of mindfulness and meditation to achieve. But I will consciously pray on it.
I will strive to keep my mind clear at all times. Of distractions, of poisons, of negativities.
I will be led by my breath, which will be slow, measured, present. It will be deliberate.
Anything worth having is worth waiting for. Infinitely.
And life, as it is today, in the moment, is how it will always be.
Right now, is forever.
