Right now, is forever

The feeling of haste and urgency is - in all probability - the universe testing you. 

Testing to see how desperate you are for it. 

Desperation is the great repeller of the universe. 

Even in the Milky Way, at the spot of the dipole repeller lies a huge supervoid. 

Which is the universe basically telling you nothing comes to those who are desperate for it. 

I now have a 50-year plan, inspired by someone who is in great power today who - I think - when he was younger, has waited patiently to see the time he wished for. 

And it has come true for him. Not that I agree fully with this man's principles and values. 

But some things are best learnt from villains. Because heroes are too virtuous to always do the smart thing. 

The plan is to wait. And wait. And wait. To react to nothing. To be shaken by nothing. 

Which is going to take a lot of mindfulness and meditation to achieve. But I will consciously pray on it. 

I will strive to keep my mind clear at all times. Of distractions, of poisons, of negativities. 

I will be led by my breath, which will be slow, measured, present. It will be deliberate. 

Anything worth having is worth waiting for. Infinitely. 

And life, as it is today, in the moment, is how it will always be. 

Right now, is forever. 

We're in August 2025 already...

Can't believe we're 8 months into the year and I've only blogged twice. It's been crazy busy. 

I genuinely can't tell where the past few months have gone by. 

It's a great feeling, honestly.

I read somewhere recently what a privilege it is to be doing the work you once prayed for. To be so busy doing what you love. 

Maybe this is what they mean by Ikigai. 

I will come back here very soon. As soon as all of this good, great, soul-satisfying madness is over. 

I will - hopefully - be able to string all my loose thoughts together to write something that'll help me make sense of the utterly delightful chaos the past year has been.

This. This is what we once prayed for. 

I'll be back... soon.

WINNER TAKES IT ALL (BCS - S4E10)

 

DD World War death edition

It's World War 2 time. I'm on one side as a civilian. We're in Prague or somewhere and somehow I land up at a warsite that's a swimming pool. There's 4-5 of us and we all dive in. There's heavy shelling going on, and some of the blasts are missing us narrowly. It's quite scary and I'm telling the others to keep themselves safe. Some of the others die from the shelling. Somehow 3 of us survive. Then a small UFO looking thing flies above the pool, detects the other 2 moving and shoots a kind of bullet or something that kills them. Then it comes for me. At first I'm able to evade it by lying very still in the water. Then something pulls me back, and the UFO is able to detect me. It hovers to a stop right above my head and shoots the bullet. I feel a numbing and the lights go out. 

I'm at some kind of cottage where it's quiet and peaceful. In it, my parents are having lunch. Noodles and some curry. There's some kind of TV on, on which they're watching the war unfold. I'm still numb, so I'm thinking to myself if this is what death feels like it's awesome and not something to be scared of at all. But we have to go again because the shelling will get us. So we get out of that space. We're now at some kind of small port where people are rushing to get on a boat. The shelling continues. Some kind of God command goes off in the sky and it orders a change of viewing resolution of the war. The visual mechanism obeys, and all the equipment changes to high resolution displays. Suddenly everyone is so much clearer. We're again clamoring to get on the boats while some people fall off and drown in the water.